I don't know what it is about these past couple of weeks. Is it the work? It can't be, work is the same as always. Maybe it's the weather. There's something going around perhaps.
Anyway, I can't seem to muster up any enthusiasm for anything lately. So I apologize to the people around me for being such a lifeless hag (cue Manolo impersonating me as Eeyore. Manolo [as Kristine]: That was such a horrible show. The world is going to end. We're all going to die. You suck.)
I don't even have the strength to go look for new music. Everything in my iPod is from a year ago and I haven't heard anything noteworthy since I got back from the States. Sigh.
Is this what they call the blues?
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Every day I cross the street known as C5 to get on a jeep to Cubao. And every day I almost get run over. There's a pedestrian crossing, so I know that if anybody does manage to hit me they'd be forking over some serious cash (unless of course it's a hit and run. Bastard).
What I dislike the most about the motorists that don't stop when they see me cross the street (on a pedestrian crossing), is when the asshole blinks his lights and honks his horn at me as he approaches. As if I can't see an SUV coming towards me. What's worse is if he's honking and blinking and he
fucking slows down. So now I'm slightly confused, which is not a good thing to be when you're crossing a five lane street with no stoplight (albeit with a meaningless pedestrian crossing). And a big truck is coming up behind me and I'm stuck in the middle of the street feeling like Frogger.
Where was I? Oh yes, confused. I'm confused because I don't know if he's blinking at me to cross like, "Hey, I'm blinking and slowing down, you may cross", or blinking at me simply to say that he is there (which is very idiotic because I'm obviously not blind). Slowing down but not actually stopping is the worst because it's like a big 'Fuck you, pedestrian on the pedestrian crossing! I only slowed down to show you my big SUV that you obviously can't afford because you're not driving one and honking and blinking at poor pedestrians who have to use public transportation with no air conditioning.'
I'm telling you, one day I wish a car would actually nudge me a little so I can reenact that scene from "Midnight Cowboy".
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I don't remember the first time I saw Charlotte Gainsbourg. I think it was in a magazine. However I do remember seeing her in "Jane Eyre" after I tried reading "Wide Sargasso Sea", and she was great in it.
I don't know where I'm going with this except she released an album last year that I'm just downloading now. She was aided by Jarvis Cocker and Air. She's pretty good. And if anyone asked me who my style icon was I'd look at them quizzically first then tell them Audrey Hepburn is passe and Charlotte Gainsbourg the shizz.
Oh look! I have new music!